Sometimes I Think, Sometimes I Don't

I feel like such a mean person :( Somebody asked me if I would go to the ball with him and I said no. Ugh, and then he tried to convince me that he's really nice and that I should go simply because of this. It's true, he's not a bad guy or anything, I just don't want to go, because the person I would want to go with is not here. Instead, he's halfway around the world and he's probably forgotten all about me, what with all the gorgeous American girls.

Please, please, PLEASE, don't ask me who asked me, because all that will happen is that I will get very mad and resent the fact that you were born.
I'm kidding, I'm not that mean, but I sure wont be happy.

So I've been thinking about tattoos again, and something that struck me is this:

"The Greek word for “return” is nostos. Algos means “suffering.” So nostalgia is the suffering caused by an unappeased yearning to return."

Nostos Algos. I kinda like it. I'm often hit with bouts of nostalgia. In my mind, my childhood was wonderful. Before my parents divorced and my dad left when I was eight, it really did feel like everything was perfect. We had a beautiful house (number one, Hugh Green Drive, Albany, Auckland), I went to a great school and had so many friends, I had an adorable youngest sister (Ellie, before she turned into a psycho) and another older younger sister (Tori, before she grew up a little more and formed opinions) who I could put up with a lot easier. I don't remember my parents fighting. We went on vacation (England, Fiji, Arizona), and I lived closer to my relatives.
Back to the tattoo, though. I just need an image to go with it. What represents nostalgia? I suppose clocks do, but I don't really like clocks, they make annoying noises. Clouds? Clouds passing?
To be honest I want a bird. A nostalgic bird. Birds fly. Back in time? A bird in a whirl of time?

In a tophat. Hehe.


The sky is darkening like a stain,
Something is going to fall like rain
And it won't be flowers.