Guess what?

I'm home! I mean REALLY home. All my stuff is currently sitting in the car. I've offically moved back to Sanson. It took Mum and I 2 and a half hours to clear out and clean my room, plus four driving to and from Wellington. It's been a long day :)

Where do we go, nobody knows. I've gotta say I'm on my way down.

Things are looking quite a bit better right now. My mum is visiting me tomorrow. We're going to get lunch and go to Wellington Zoo (!!!!) and then we're driving home to Sanson. On Tuesday I'm going to a movie with a friend, then on Wednesday I'm going to Keryn & Jess' houses then to Palmerston North for a pub quiz, and on Thursday we're all going to see The Lion King in 3D. Also, my sleeping is better (last night I slept from 10-8 this morning). AND I heard that if I get a late withdrawal, Studylink will take back my uni fees! I'm not too sure about whether that's true but it would be infinitely awesome if I didn't have a ten grand plus loan hanging over my head. The title of this post by the way is from a Coldplay song (of course!!). I think that line is about going to hell or something idk.

your guess is as good as mine.

The councellor I went to see was really nice. She was quite old, had really long blond hair and was wearing big sunglasses over her normal glasses. The session I went to wasn't a real councelling session, it was more of a 20 minute question session. She just asked me about a heap of stuff- my diet, my schoolwork, whether or not I was suicidal- and I guess she was pretty concerned because she said that if I decided to withdraw from uni she would back me up. Late withdrawals are what people do if they have circumstances that prevent them from passing their courses. So I'll probably do that instead of getting a bunch of Fs. She said I should get a full physical at my doctor's, plus go to someone about getting some vitamins, because I look exhausted. Everything in my life- my diet, my weight, my motivation- really spiralled out of control this year. My mum might be coming down to Welly to visit me and after that I'll be seeing Chrissy when she visits and then going home, and leaving Joan Stevens Hall forever (thank god!).

Anyway, right now I'm sitting in bed watching Green Street Hooligans and eating cashew nuts. I've been up since 2am and I'm pretty tired but I'm determined to stay up until 8 tonight so that's another 9 hours. I should be able to do it. I'm also listening to Coldplay which is where the title of this post comes from.

And thank you Rachel and Rachel for the comments on my last post and to others who comment on my posts; you guys are awesome :)
re. the last post, @Rachel G- I suppose that yes, I do plan on staying on Wellington. Despite everything I've really become attatched to the city, plus some of my friends will be here next year. Rachel T- thanks, but I think I'll pass :D

xx

yep.

points of interest (?):

• probably not going back to uni next year
• went to see a councellor about this
• made an appointment for a careers advisor in 2 weeks
  
• it's raining like mad right now and I had to catch a damn taxi home from uni
  
• i
• don't
• know
• what
• i'm
• doing
• with
• my
• life
• !!!
  

Living in an empty world.

Writing a blog post because I have nothing else to do. Facebook and Tumblr are dead. I've tried everything; installed updates, troubleshooted, restarted, reconnected and disconnected... so, erm, here's a post! yay?! I've had a strange day. I slept from 9 this morning to 9 tonight, and I woke up thinking it was Sunday. It was strange. I wasn't even particularly tired, I'd just decided to stay in bed all day, because I couldn't think of anything better to do. I didn't eat for twenty four hours and felt completely fine. At 10 I went to the supermarket and got some bread and cold meat, which was really nice. I don't really like walking around by myself at night, especially when there are people everywhere; boys on skateboards, people out drinking... it was scary, but it worth getting home and having a sandwich, especially since I haven't eaten meat in weeks. So now I'm sitting in the lounge with Sam and Maria because I was hoping that the internet would be better where the modem is, but nope. So. This post has no real point. (The title of this post, by the way, is a song by The Strokes called Games. It's from the album Angles, which I really love).

Considering staying up all night again. Might as well, since I've only been up for four hours. I have the end of season 4 and all of season 5 of Lost on DVD to watch, so even if the internet stays down I have something to do... Okay, well this has been a massive waste of everyone's time. So I'll go now. Goodbye :)