your guess is as good as mine.

The councellor I went to see was really nice. She was quite old, had really long blond hair and was wearing big sunglasses over her normal glasses. The session I went to wasn't a real councelling session, it was more of a 20 minute question session. She just asked me about a heap of stuff- my diet, my schoolwork, whether or not I was suicidal- and I guess she was pretty concerned because she said that if I decided to withdraw from uni she would back me up. Late withdrawals are what people do if they have circumstances that prevent them from passing their courses. So I'll probably do that instead of getting a bunch of Fs. She said I should get a full physical at my doctor's, plus go to someone about getting some vitamins, because I look exhausted. Everything in my life- my diet, my weight, my motivation- really spiralled out of control this year. My mum might be coming down to Welly to visit me and after that I'll be seeing Chrissy when she visits and then going home, and leaving Joan Stevens Hall forever (thank god!).

Anyway, right now I'm sitting in bed watching Green Street Hooligans and eating cashew nuts. I've been up since 2am and I'm pretty tired but I'm determined to stay up until 8 tonight so that's another 9 hours. I should be able to do it. I'm also listening to Coldplay which is where the title of this post comes from.

And thank you Rachel and Rachel for the comments on my last post and to others who comment on my posts; you guys are awesome :)
re. the last post, @Rachel G- I suppose that yes, I do plan on staying on Wellington. Despite everything I've really become attatched to the city, plus some of my friends will be here next year. Rachel T- thanks, but I think I'll pass :D

xx