Irrelevance

I think I might delete the post i made earlier. It's pretty much useless.

I thought today would be a good day. I had an idea in my mind that today would be great. It would be sunny, there would be laughter, I would be happy. I was wrong. Even though I wore my new(ish) dress which I was saving up to wear when I really felt like it, and even though I got out of bed on time and in the car with no yelling, and even though I had cruisy classes all day. Even though all of this was true, the day was still a huge, massive let-down. Why? Well:
- It was motherfucking cold. And windy. Wind has to be my LEAST favourite element. A breeze I can handle, but not wind.
- Halfway through English (first period) I developed a stomach pain. There was no obvious reason, it just popped up, said hello, and set about tearing up my intestines.
- History sucked.
- The arrangement of the classes today was retarded. I was in Geography thinking, great, last period, home soon, but no. I had Tourism next. We watched some inane bullshit about advertising, and I sat there, in pain, tired as hell and wanting to sleep so, so bad.
- I finished my book in study, which is good, I suppose, but I finished it in the first twenty minutes and then had nothing to do.
- I didn't get any lunch money this morning, which I was counting on because we were out of school snacks, but Mum wouldn't let me have any more until tomorrow because she needed the cash. All I had to eat today before 4PM was a packet of Burger Rings.

I wonder, does anyone know when I'm having a bad day? With some people it's so obvious, because it shows on their face or they complain about it, and I'm willing to listen, it's just that I don't really do this, do I? I don't know. Some days I'm having a hell of a bad time and I still talk and laugh and tell jokes.

So anyway. My post last night got four opinions about the sun thing and the gay thing. Of course, Jess wrote an essay, which is fine :D She has very strong opinions.
I suppose I should have specified that I was talking merely about the reproduction thing, not the love thing. Your thoughts were all very good though. I'm not sure what to think.

I have something to say, and it might take a while, so bear with me.
On the bus today Tori and I were talking about Christianity. Not in depth, because Tori doesn't do that, but she said she's agnostic and I said I'm atheist. Some people think they're the same, but they're not.
Atheism: Theism is the belief in a god (monotheism) or multiple gods (polytheism) - a belief which is normally a part of a religion, but need not be. By adding the prefix "a", which means "not; without," we get atheism - and hence "not/without belief in gods."
Agnosticism: ”A” means “without” and “gnosis” means “knowledge.” Hence, agnostic: without knowledge, but specifically without knowledge of gods.

According to my sister, someone who is atheist hates people who are religious, but I don't think this is true. I don't hate religious people, I simply deny that their God is real. I mean (and please try not to take offense if you're Christian or whatever), what's so believable about a magical being who is everywhere creating the Universe from what we can assume or not is nothing. I don't feel a spiritual connection to anything. I feel like there has to be a logical reason for the universe. There is science, and unlike math many other things, science explains things. Baking and cooking is a science, the human body and how it works is science. Space is science. Science has a lot of answers and these answers have foundations, but religion... what do they want to base it on? A book with no proof?

And then I talked to my mum, and she said that until I have read the Bible, and until I have been to Rome and Jerusalem, I can't really call myself atheist. I'm agnostic, then? I suppose I am.

What I want to know is your views. I'm interested :).