In a disarray. Horrified. Listless. Mindless. Souless. Bodyless.
I hate other people and the things they do.
A flurry of quiet and no emotion. I'm not even sure how I feel. I think it might be mostly shock. I'm in shock.
I shouldn't be on here, but I have to get my feelings down.
Feelings? Where? Someone give them back to me. Give me my anger so I can properly feel it, give me my grief.
Maybe I'm just overreacting.
No, I'm not. I'm a teenager, I'm allowed to cry, only my tears ran away and they took my mind with them.
This will pass, this will pass, this will pass. When he's gone for good and my life- my life. Wont be the same. Itwontbethesame. Wontbethesame.
Fuck.
I'm going. To mope.
x
I'm really worried!
ReplyDeleteWhats going on???
ARE YOU OK???
I am actually giving the computer a hug, as so to try and send my love to you that way. I fail.
ReplyDeleteIt will pass. But in the meantime, eat icecream. And mope. :X << kiss face fail
*hug*
ReplyDeleteHope your okay. Or at least, feeling a little better.