The kind that I will regret the minute I post it. I already regret it and I've barely started. Everyone is inside watching American Idol so I can be sure of peace and quiet for at least half an hour. Do you ever have those days where everything is kind of borderline shit, and then something comes along which makes your whole life unbearable and you feel like crawling into a dark corner, sticking a paper bag over you head and just willing yourself to sleep until everything gets better? I know I sound all "emo" (which is so two years ago, BTW), but it's true, it feels like that. I had one of those days.
Everyone says, "You shouldn't care about what other people think, because their opinions don't matter". Well fuck them, they DO matter. People's opinions are the foundations for a lot of things in life: your relationships, your jobs, your friends... I try not to let things get to me but they always do.
Then there's the confusion. The opinions that contradict each other. How is it that some people think I'm some hideous fat person while others say "who's your hot friend?" (though of course they went off with someone else before you could get a word in). Fuck them all, I try to say, they don't matter. You're stuck with what you've got and you might as well try to live with it. You get what you're given and all that rubbish.
The world is unfair, and we all know that. Some people get all the luck- the brains, the beauty, the friends and the fame- and some are lacking in something.
I might as well just stop here. I'm only embarrassing myself. I'm gonna go and eat some food and get fatter and wallow in my own misery, and throw things at the pretty people on TV.
Good night, my luvverlies :)
Dude, I can tell you one thing and that is that you sure as hell aren't fat. And you ain't hideous either.
ReplyDeleteIn fact, you know, I've always really liked your hair. And that's one opinion that DOES matter, cuz it's mine. xD
if my opinion counts.... which it probably won't but I find you rather attractive....
ReplyDeleteYou guys are too kind :)
ReplyDeleteyour post bought me so close to tears it's not funny.
ReplyDeleteFuck I can't even find the words, there are no words to say what I want to say. Don't you ever, not even for one second believe you are some "hideous fat person" because you are anything but.
And I can tell you now, that there are people literally DYING to look like you do.
You are beautiful Rose, don't let anyone convince you otherwise.
Rosey you are beautiful and you're right opinions of others do matter but only the opinions of your friends. They are the ones that know you inside and out and who understand that even on your bad hair days you are beautiful inside!! And rose you are not fat and people who tell you that do so only because they themselves feel insecure. There is no defining term for beauty or idealistic weight but in my opinion you are perfect, don't change for anyone!
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