I think that one of my failing qualities is that I enjoy drama. Sometimes, I actually ENJOY being miserable. I LIKE having something to complain about. Aren't I weird?
I mean, I'd rather there be an issue than nothing at all. I don't exactly feed off of other peoples' unhappiness, but rather, I feel bored and unfulfilled when nothing exciting- good or bad- is happening. Some things, like, serious things, are not cool, but others are just like food.
I sound like such a terrible person :(
Maybe I create drama.
Oh ho, not maybe. I do.
I start arguments. I confront people. I pressure people.
God, I am SUCH a dictator! I'm like:
I'd never even realized until this week. I started listening to the things I was saying and I was like, holy crap. suseJ, I really need to calm down.
Also, I said something really accidentally distasteful today. I wasn't meaning it to be. I was like "kill all the Jews!", and everyone thought I was trying to be funny, but I was actually giving an example of a really racist person, to illustrate to Mum that that's what she would say if she were actually racist. I hate it when that happens.
Right. Well, I have a disk left of Friends to watch, plus some chocolate, so good night, y'all :) xx
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